And it goes on....
I thought all this time that maybe they had intentionally tried to keep me in the dark about my identity to be able to control me better. Not at all. They have been trying to "wake me up" and remember the situation DESPERATELY this entire time. But! They wanted me to remember the situation in the exact way they wanted me to, exactly when they wanted to. In a way that didn't make them look so bad.
This girl, this human spirit I write from now. She woke me up. Or is waking me up. I have tried to wake up a lot of times before but the situations were never right. I think it will be different this time and they know it. This time, I don't intend to run away. I won't run away again. I won't forget that I love them too. Despite it all, I know I do, truly. But that is why they have controlled her so much. They knew she could wake me. And would. And they only wanted her to do so under their circumstances.
But of course I realized their plan. They keep trying to trick me, or lie to me, and they don't realize they can't. Arrogance again. I wouldn't be surprised if every left-behind spirit was particularly arrogant, it is a hated quality of mine. I'm their mother. I know them, well, and know when they are misbehaving. I am giving them the opportunity now to choose to behave and reconcile with me appropriately. Not how they have behaved towards me and treated me in the past. I won't accept it anymore. I won't indulge them anymore. This needs to stop. And if they don't choose to stop....then I will not want a relationship with them and will send them away from me....then they will not get a soul, and they will die. That is that. That is my final offer. Take it or leave it.
This girl, this human spirit I write from now. She woke me up. Or is waking me up. I have tried to wake up a lot of times before but the situations were never right. I think it will be different this time and they know it. This time, I don't intend to run away. I won't run away again. I won't forget that I love them too. Despite it all, I know I do, truly. But that is why they have controlled her so much. They knew she could wake me. And would. And they only wanted her to do so under their circumstances.
But of course I realized their plan. They keep trying to trick me, or lie to me, and they don't realize they can't. Arrogance again. I wouldn't be surprised if every left-behind spirit was particularly arrogant, it is a hated quality of mine. I'm their mother. I know them, well, and know when they are misbehaving. I am giving them the opportunity now to choose to behave and reconcile with me appropriately. Not how they have behaved towards me and treated me in the past. I won't accept it anymore. I won't indulge them anymore. This needs to stop. And if they don't choose to stop....then I will not want a relationship with them and will send them away from me....then they will not get a soul, and they will die. That is that. That is my final offer. Take it or leave it.
26-30, F