Night went well
I handled things. I believe I understand what I am meant to do now.
The female entity is gone. When I told her to leave that last time before she hurt me and helped her to get control of herself back, I didn't realize the "hug" she gave me meant she was leaving for good. I think she struggled a bit to leave me but by the next morning I knew we were no longer married. She understood what was going on and gracefully bowed out. I appreciate that.
It is just me and the original entity now. Things are going well with him so far. However-the state of consciousness I am in now may be difficult for me to maintain. I'm not sure. This "awakening" has been a process for me. I'll remember things, but run away again. Or remember things but the memories are just all over the place. Disjointed and not in order I have to figure out how to put the pieces together. So it is possible I will move backwards again. He is worried about this. I can't speak for how I will be but I know now I intend not to move backwards again. That is the best I can do.
The female entity is gone. When I told her to leave that last time before she hurt me and helped her to get control of herself back, I didn't realize the "hug" she gave me meant she was leaving for good. I think she struggled a bit to leave me but by the next morning I knew we were no longer married. She understood what was going on and gracefully bowed out. I appreciate that.
It is just me and the original entity now. Things are going well with him so far. However-the state of consciousness I am in now may be difficult for me to maintain. I'm not sure. This "awakening" has been a process for me. I'll remember things, but run away again. Or remember things but the memories are just all over the place. Disjointed and not in order I have to figure out how to put the pieces together. So it is possible I will move backwards again. He is worried about this. I can't speak for how I will be but I know now I intend not to move backwards again. That is the best I can do.
