"Safe" currently.....
There is another spirit here (one I've known a long time) who is keeping the others away. I have been arguing with and combating him all day over trying to share information. It's frustrating.
But to be honest, it is also a big, big relief to have some space apart from those other guys. Could this spirit I'm with right now cause a LOT of trouble for me? Yes. I'm on very, very thin ice right now and having to navigate carefully.
I have basically spent the past 2 days just having memories and information flood into me. Things I have been repressing and hiding from for a very long time. I am learning how to stop repressing. I am healing from my dissociative state, very gradually. Every hour that passes is like eons of memories being beamed to me at once. It's overwhelming. But I am "being like water" and going with it and practicing my emotional regulation and coping skills to get through it. I didn't have those before really and so I went insane from this process when it started before and then stopped it.
There is a significant amount more I am aware of now and become aware of as time continues. But I am facing SIGNIFICANT opposition in sharing all of it, so bear with me.
But to be honest, it is also a big, big relief to have some space apart from those other guys. Could this spirit I'm with right now cause a LOT of trouble for me? Yes. I'm on very, very thin ice right now and having to navigate carefully.
I have basically spent the past 2 days just having memories and information flood into me. Things I have been repressing and hiding from for a very long time. I am learning how to stop repressing. I am healing from my dissociative state, very gradually. Every hour that passes is like eons of memories being beamed to me at once. It's overwhelming. But I am "being like water" and going with it and practicing my emotional regulation and coping skills to get through it. I didn't have those before really and so I went insane from this process when it started before and then stopped it.
There is a significant amount more I am aware of now and become aware of as time continues. But I am facing SIGNIFICANT opposition in sharing all of it, so bear with me.
