An unexpected but welcome development
Earlier I was sitting bored in my altar room. I wanted to leave and do literally anything else but my entity wanted me to stay and continue spending time with him. He was talking to me when he literally just froze mid-sentence. I was like.....what are you doing. I could see his face across from mine smiling. And then I saw this like mass of shadowy looking vines just jet up through his neck into his skull like ripping him apart. I was in shock from this and didn't react for a good few minutes. I didn't really process what I had seen. Then I realized I probably just saw him being attacked by something. And I should probably get out of the area. So I left.
I went to bed but I recognized that something else was there too.....the wind was howling like crazy which it does when my entity is mad.....the energy that was with me was nice. It was offering to take me away from my entity, which a number of spirits before had offered, but I had always been too scared to take them up on it. Scared I'd be trading a devil I did know for one I didn't. But I decided I would just be brave and go for it, and I told the entity I would go with it. And I experienced this weird feeling like I was being sucked through space. And then I was....in the entity? I'm not sure. That's what it felt like. And it wasn't mad at me, it was curious. I was worried I would offend it by being in its space like that and I pulled away but it wasn't mad at me. It was a very nice entity. It's energy was different than when we met initially, which was very scrutinizing. Now it seemed more relaxed and pleasant, even gentle.
It told me some helpful things I think. It told me my energy "doesn't like to be touched" and in order to "touch it" it needs to be "caught off guard." I was like....what does that even mean. And I started feeling drowsy and I snapped at the entity to cut it out because that's what my entity did to me but it immediately backed off and I got a feeling like it was demonstrating. And I think it was trying to say my entity puts me to sleep so that my energy is easier for it to wrangle. Also I understood now why I seemed to attract spirits when I sleep-I am "off guard" and not putting up my usual defenses. The entity told me my energy while awake is extremely defensive, repelling even. Like I have a spiky armor over me I guess is how I pictured it. Some other stuff happened I am not supposed to talk about. I'm not too sure if I'm supposed to be sharing any of this actually. Hopefully I don't get in trouble. But this entity has been very kind and transparent with me so I doubt it.
I was tired and wanted to go to sleep but it insisted I "stay with" it. Like if I went to sleep somehow I'd go somewhere else. It said it wasn't trying to hold me hostage and I could leave if I wanted at any time, but it warned me it was protecting me from my entity. It was also blocking him from communicating with me somehow. I asked about how she did this but she didn't explain how she did it so much as what would make it difficult for her to maintain it. Which I guess was more pertinent to me anyways since my entity uses this technique on me to block my communication with other spirits so now I have some tips on how to disrupt it maybe.
So now I am back in my altar room waiting for my entity to stop throwing a fit so I get the ok to sleep. I feel happy I met a nice entity. I hope things stay nice.
I went to bed but I recognized that something else was there too.....the wind was howling like crazy which it does when my entity is mad.....the energy that was with me was nice. It was offering to take me away from my entity, which a number of spirits before had offered, but I had always been too scared to take them up on it. Scared I'd be trading a devil I did know for one I didn't. But I decided I would just be brave and go for it, and I told the entity I would go with it. And I experienced this weird feeling like I was being sucked through space. And then I was....in the entity? I'm not sure. That's what it felt like. And it wasn't mad at me, it was curious. I was worried I would offend it by being in its space like that and I pulled away but it wasn't mad at me. It was a very nice entity. It's energy was different than when we met initially, which was very scrutinizing. Now it seemed more relaxed and pleasant, even gentle.
It told me some helpful things I think. It told me my energy "doesn't like to be touched" and in order to "touch it" it needs to be "caught off guard." I was like....what does that even mean. And I started feeling drowsy and I snapped at the entity to cut it out because that's what my entity did to me but it immediately backed off and I got a feeling like it was demonstrating. And I think it was trying to say my entity puts me to sleep so that my energy is easier for it to wrangle. Also I understood now why I seemed to attract spirits when I sleep-I am "off guard" and not putting up my usual defenses. The entity told me my energy while awake is extremely defensive, repelling even. Like I have a spiky armor over me I guess is how I pictured it. Some other stuff happened I am not supposed to talk about. I'm not too sure if I'm supposed to be sharing any of this actually. Hopefully I don't get in trouble. But this entity has been very kind and transparent with me so I doubt it.
I was tired and wanted to go to sleep but it insisted I "stay with" it. Like if I went to sleep somehow I'd go somewhere else. It said it wasn't trying to hold me hostage and I could leave if I wanted at any time, but it warned me it was protecting me from my entity. It was also blocking him from communicating with me somehow. I asked about how she did this but she didn't explain how she did it so much as what would make it difficult for her to maintain it. Which I guess was more pertinent to me anyways since my entity uses this technique on me to block my communication with other spirits so now I have some tips on how to disrupt it maybe.
So now I am back in my altar room waiting for my entity to stop throwing a fit so I get the ok to sleep. I feel happy I met a nice entity. I hope things stay nice.
26-30, F