"Trust" and the spirit world
Spirits seem to be big on trust. I don't have a lot of trust for them. Because I know spirits are basically just super powered humans. A human without super powers is already dangerous.
I've been having arguments. It was pointed out to me that despite these feelings I often decide to trust and if I like a human or not in the first few seconds of meeting them, but for spirits I want like an entire background check performed by myself first 😂 but can you really blame me when spirits are way more dangerous and they can see where I live and directly come there?
At the same time I think I am supposed to be interacting with spirits. God is kind of nudging me out from behind him to play with the other kids at the playground and I'm like the weird socially stunted one that hides in the play tunnel hissing at everyone who comes to say hi 😂 I've been told repeatedly to let things come to me. "Let them get to know you, let them be curious." It makes me feel so anxious. I don't even like the sensation of being looked at. But I have to "grow up" at some point. I need to be brave or I'm not going to get anywhere. God doesn't want to be the one to tell me who or what I should interact with either. He corrected me on that. He wants me to use my own judgement. Which is overwhelming but I need to be confident in myself I guess. He thinks I have the full capacity to be aware if a spirit means me harm or not and know how to handle things if they do. He wants me to make active choices about who I want in my life and who I don't, not just leave the choices up to him. That's a lot of work 😮💨 hahahhaa. I'm always complaining. Whoops.
I've been having arguments. It was pointed out to me that despite these feelings I often decide to trust and if I like a human or not in the first few seconds of meeting them, but for spirits I want like an entire background check performed by myself first 😂 but can you really blame me when spirits are way more dangerous and they can see where I live and directly come there?
At the same time I think I am supposed to be interacting with spirits. God is kind of nudging me out from behind him to play with the other kids at the playground and I'm like the weird socially stunted one that hides in the play tunnel hissing at everyone who comes to say hi 😂 I've been told repeatedly to let things come to me. "Let them get to know you, let them be curious." It makes me feel so anxious. I don't even like the sensation of being looked at. But I have to "grow up" at some point. I need to be brave or I'm not going to get anywhere. God doesn't want to be the one to tell me who or what I should interact with either. He corrected me on that. He wants me to use my own judgement. Which is overwhelming but I need to be confident in myself I guess. He thinks I have the full capacity to be aware if a spirit means me harm or not and know how to handle things if they do. He wants me to make active choices about who I want in my life and who I don't, not just leave the choices up to him. That's a lot of work 😮💨 hahahhaa. I'm always complaining. Whoops.
