How do you balance wanted to obey God but still wanting sinful stuff [Spirituality & Religion]

You can't serve God by wanting to do sinful stuff at the same time. I was a Christian and an addict at the same time and I was not able to really pray with God. Being a Christian means dying to sinful desires and living for Christ. This is a slow process, but with the help of Jesus, it is possible. You will make progress if you try to please Him. He loves you no matter what you do, but He is helping you to become the person that you were always designed to be-more like Him.