People always like to see the smiling you, the strong. You'd think true friends would see through you. But you realize they don't, or maybe...

...maybe you never really had true friends to begin with, nor family who really cares.

I got stranded.

Back in the earlier days of my life, whenever I get lost or feel sick and stuck somewhere, dad always came for me.

But that day...well just yesterday...it happened, and I realized it's just me. There's no one I feel I could call who would just drop everything and come.
I mean I have mom and she offered to come, but when it comes to safety and capability, she always used to be stuck in what she knows that I end up teaching her more so no, she doesn't really make me feel like I can be at ease...not in the way I used to feel with dad around.

Life huh?

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hartfire

Actually one can see through fake smiles when face to face - or most people intuitively can.

But with photos it's harder because the act of smiling at a camera and sustaining it while someone takes the shot is not spontaneous: it's an act.

With a fake smile, there are no crinkles at the corners of the eyes.
With a real smile, there are crinkles and the eyes twinkle.

Some friends can get to know you well enough to see through you.
Some people can read others very well and can read most strangers.

But if people are not authentic and present only the mask of their personality, it's not surprising that some friends might never really know them. Getting to know another means taking the risk of being open, honest and vulnerable to being hurt.

Where is you dad now?

What is it about your mom that means you don't feel at ease with her?

What do you need to feel at ease?

Casheyane · 31-35, F

@hartfire Dead.

The people I live with don't do dreams. They are content with being supported. They trust God but I don't see them fighting to provide for themselves. Not even when they should be capable.

Someone I haven't met.

Carissimi · F

Sometimes life was just easier knowing certain people were around. When they are gone, life never feels the same. I’m sorry you don’t have your dad anymore. I miss people (and my pets) too.

Casheyane · 31-35, F

@Carissimi Thank you. I'm sorry for your sadness too.

Carissimi · F

Thank you. 🙏 @Casheyane

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