Why do I want a man special friend although I only want it to be platonic?

If I just want platonic friends they could be man or woman. But I specifically seek men. I do also want women friends but they seem uninterested. You know busy or whatever.
I’m just so dam lonely. I feel like asking everyone I meet … will you be my friend? Lol I feel pathetic. Where are my friends? 😢

Maybe I even can be in a romance someday but there has to be a real friendship first.