Strange comforts

Downtown there’s a hospital with a beautiful green space at the side of its chapel. A hill that rises up away from the street. You rarely see anyone there as there aren’t any benches for sitting. Today, someone was there, sitting on the grass amongst the trees. Knees up, arms resting on them. Just sitting there looking out at the world. Like a story in a language I couldn’t read but took comfort in all the same. 💞

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JesseInTX · 51-55, M

There is a greenspace at the hospital my dad was in. Nice covering, benches and chairs. I spent a lot of time sitting there and praying. The day my dad passed he was going downhill quickly and we were forced to choose life support or leave it to God. I sat there before he went home and prayed “if your ultimate plan is to take him home, then do it. Don’t let him stay here and suffer. Take him. We’ll be alright and we’ll take care of mom”. Dad lasted until anyone in the family within 100 mile radius was able to get there to say goodbye. And then he was gone. I’ve gone back to that place a few times since.

Coldplay · 61-69, M

@JesseInTX I know that feeling my friend.

JesseInTX · 51-55, M

@Coldplay I hate he’s gone but glad he was surrounded by the people who loved him most and didn’t suffer a long drawn out transition. It was a couple weeks before Christmas last year.

Coldplay · 61-69, M

@JesseInTX similar here. We were all with him. His death really changed me.

JesseInTX · 51-55, M

@Coldplay me too. I do still have times where I’m contemplating something, grab my phone to call him for advice, only to see the little black urn with some of his ashes on my mantle 😞

Coldplay · 61-69, M

@JesseInTX yeah. I know. My dad was my guy. We shared so much. But I am fortunate. He knew how I felt about him and I knew how he felt about me. So many lose a parent and wish they had said “I love you.” In that way, I’m good.

JesseInTX · 51-55, M

@Coldplay I’m good too in that way. He looked to me to be the one to carry on his legacy and lead the family. I could get him to do things no one else could when he was sick. I think part of that was his way of us having private conversations about what he wanted and what he expected after he was gone.

Coldplay · 61-69, M

@JesseInTX we are very fortunate

JesseInTX · 51-55, M

@Coldplay I believe so. I cherish that.

Coldplay · 61-69, M

@JesseInTX same!