I do not apologize to anyone for expressing the depth of my sadness, anger, and pain here, nor will I remove my posts to make anyone feel more comfortable. All that time, and it was far too long, I was screaming out loud from the depths of a place so deep, I never before, knew could exist. But, I was true to myself and to my convictions... never divulging confidential information or slandering anyone in anger, even though I was asked to multiple times by multiple people. At first, it stemmed from a misplaced sense of loyalty but eventually evolved into what I did to feel good about myself. While I DO regret on so, so, so, many levels, what ushered me into that heart space, I DO NOT regret writing out loud to clear my head...my heart. I have not reached the final lap of my healing journey, but I continue to make progress. I have setbacks like everyone else, but I continue to get up, and I will, in the end, make it through. Some part of me always knew I would, even when my heart argued otherwise. I will always be alright - there is simply no other choice. Thank you to those who have been kind and have wished me well even though I couldn't have been easy to like or to even put up with. I'm sure you know who you are. Your kindnesses and encouragements were invaluable. I will forever be thankful for you. Thank you too, @Justmeraeagain for letting me borrow this meme. It sums it up perfectly.
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Everyone's journey is different. I think those who are first to criticize have problems they are not dealing with,as it's easier to give advice than to follow it.
You can post anything you like,some will be compassionate others may see it as an opportunity to dump their own stuff on you,which is unfair,as they are just as free to express themselves on a post of their own.
I choose to share some ,but there is a limit to what I share, that's my way of protecting myself.
@Justmeraeagain Most have been supportive and kind. Others are uncomfortable, I think.
I hope my writing gives people a chance to see they aren't alone in things they're going through and a place to say things they may not otherwise have a place to.
I take the good comments with the bad.
I am well protected these days. Moreso than when I thought I was years ago. I was naive and idealistic - believed in words and promises - in love. I've changed in many ways. I live quietly now. Expecting nothing and not being disappointed.
