I needed that time. And I needed this outlet.

I do not apologize to anyone for expressing the depth of my sadness, anger, and pain here, nor will I remove my posts to make anyone feel more comfortable. All that time, and it was far too long, I was screaming out loud from the depths of a place so deep, I never before, knew could exist. But, I was true to myself and to my convictions... never divulging confidential information or slandering anyone in anger, even though I was asked to multiple times by multiple people. At first, it stemmed from a misplaced sense of loyalty but eventually evolved into what I did to feel good about myself. While I DO regret on so, so, so, many levels, what ushered me into that heart space, I DO NOT regret writing out loud to clear my head...my heart. I have not reached the final lap of my healing journey, but I continue to make progress. I have setbacks like everyone else, but I continue to get up, and I will, in the end, make it through. Some part of me always knew I would, even when my heart argued otherwise. I will always be alright - there is simply no other choice. Thank you to those who have been kind and have wished me well even though I couldn't have been easy to like or to even put up with. I'm sure you know who you are. Your kindnesses and encouragements were invaluable. I will forever be thankful for you.
Thank you too, @Justmeraeagain for letting me borrow this meme. It sums it up perfectly.