Yes, I'm finally coming to the realization of it all. I was so immersed in the relationship that I never thought it would end. I was my best and I loved someone from a different angle... it wasn't a sexual attraction.. it was more... he and I didn't really meet for a year after our friendship began. We Skype for the first time after a year and sparks flew when we set eyes on each other... it was like I was finally linked together with my other half.... it was something I had never experienced before in my life.

Now that I'm head above water..., I have been battling with the acceptance... he came into my life for a reason... he had been the holder of my mind, heart and soul & now I have to pick up the pieces and get to a place in life where I can trust again...

Thank you for your comment :>

Hmmmm, I can relate to this very much. Online relationships are very real, and then they're also not real at all. It's a painful lesson, and one I'm still getting over as well. Sorry you are too.

You hit the nail on the head. "We only want what we can't have". Being of a different culture would be very trying for you. Many are indifferent to women. Consider it a blessing in disguise. You dodged the perverbial "bullet" as they say. I wish your heart peace.

Let go of him. U will get even better.

Uh, judging from what you just wrote, he just could have been a jerk... Additionally, I'm not normally that concerned over cultures, but Middle East and USA woman sounds like a recipe for disaster unless they've had a chance to acclimate to western culture (or other way around). Other than that your situation sounds very much like mine, and we always colour our experiences with our own feelings, but I'm going to go on a limb and say you were lucky to get out when you did.