Uncertainty (Rant)

This morning I found out that I lost my gold ring at an auditorium and I don't think there's any way to get it back. I'm so fricking scared of what my parents might say once they realise. And it feels like everything is coming at me all at once. Years of hearing my parents call me irresponsible and careless.. I feel like I keep conforming their beliefs about me no matter how much I try to prove them wrong. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about how I feel. And I feel shit. I feel so very shit. I don't think there's anything left for me here. My partner is going through kind of a hard time so I really don't want to make it worse for him by crying over it. But I wish there were people who gave a damn about me?? I just pretty much feel like Catra from She-Ra and the Princesses of Power. And what's funny is, I once was pretty much like Adora. I just don't know what to do tbh. I'm really tired. And all of this rambling is just an attempt to lighten the burden but yeah.

I hope you have a great day tho :)) <33

UPDATE: I FOUND MY RING AND I'M SO RELIEVED NOW. I ALMOST CRIED. Thank you sooooooo much y'all. I really appreciate the kind replies 🥺❤️