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I'm drunk I'm angry so let's do this. I'm about to beat the brakes off this guy. Who in the hell even are you to come and treat me like I'm some window licking idiot. You dropped a wisk told me to pick it up then belittled me for placing it onto the table saying to take it back to dish and then when I said I will after I print off the label I need proceed to patronise me by telling me that now I need to wipe the whole table down to clean it. Yeah mate I can wipe a table I don't have a problem wiping down a damn table. What I do have a problem with is you coming up in here talking to me like I'm a second class citizen. God damn pencil necked son of a prostitute with a creepy little mustache. I swear I will slap that damn creeper stache off your face if you do that shit one more time. I will knock you out of your stupid little rubber boots and kick you down clown. I am beyond tired of people treating me like someone you can just look down on. Why? I'm just as good as anyone else here. Why? I deserve to be treated with respect like everyone else here. Why? What have I even done to you? I'm sick of this shit. I've been treated as less than my entire life and I am done with it.
Maybe my dad was right maybe I will wind up in prison for beating the crap out of someone for disrespecting me. I may not be the biggest guy on the planet but god damn it I will bring down the house if I have to. I will die trying at this point. I need a new job I need a new life I need a new everything. What do I have to do march up to the pearly gates and demand to speak to god like a psycho karen? Is that what I have to do? Do I have to go to a church and start screaming and cussing out jesus? Is that what I have to do? Christ on a cross no wonder why my blood pressure is as high as it is look what I have to put up with on the daily. I try my best not to take it out on those around me but most of the time I end up ripping someone's head off. I get so damn angry and frustrated I feel like I zone out half the time and get wicked tunnel vision and disassociation.
I'm just so sick and tired of busting my ass for nothing. I'm just so sick of being looked down on and treated like some stupid child. I'm not stupid or a child. I am 27 years old and these stupid little 20 year olds think they know better than I do. Yeah right I've been around the block a time or two I know shit because I lived it. I've never had an easy life ever. I don't know what the hell I ever did to deserve any of this. It's like god put my life on hard mode to punish me for a past life or something. Maybe I was a real monster in a past life and this is what I get for punishment. How the hell am I supposed to know and how the hell is it my problem now. I'm not even that person anymore assuming I was even anything prior to being born into this life. Maybe I was something stupid like a frog or a tomato plant. Who knows at this point. I'm just tired of it all.
Maybe my dad was right maybe I will wind up in prison for beating the crap out of someone for disrespecting me. I may not be the biggest guy on the planet but god damn it I will bring down the house if I have to. I will die trying at this point. I need a new job I need a new life I need a new everything. What do I have to do march up to the pearly gates and demand to speak to god like a psycho karen? Is that what I have to do? Do I have to go to a church and start screaming and cussing out jesus? Is that what I have to do? Christ on a cross no wonder why my blood pressure is as high as it is look what I have to put up with on the daily. I try my best not to take it out on those around me but most of the time I end up ripping someone's head off. I get so damn angry and frustrated I feel like I zone out half the time and get wicked tunnel vision and disassociation.
I'm just so sick and tired of busting my ass for nothing. I'm just so sick of being looked down on and treated like some stupid child. I'm not stupid or a child. I am 27 years old and these stupid little 20 year olds think they know better than I do. Yeah right I've been around the block a time or two I know shit because I lived it. I've never had an easy life ever. I don't know what the hell I ever did to deserve any of this. It's like god put my life on hard mode to punish me for a past life or something. Maybe I was a real monster in a past life and this is what I get for punishment. How the hell am I supposed to know and how the hell is it my problem now. I'm not even that person anymore assuming I was even anything prior to being born into this life. Maybe I was something stupid like a frog or a tomato plant. Who knows at this point. I'm just tired of it all.
26-30, M
