I Need to Rant

Since the weather is getting colder my hip is acting up again. Same damn hip as always the left one. It hurt some during the spring and summer but went away. The pain is back with a vengeance. I was attempting to do the dishes when it struck out of nowhere. It's the kind of pain that makes your knee buckle. The kind that makes you collapse some. I had to sit down for a minute until it stopped to finish dishes. This pain is ridiculous.

I'm probably in need of a hip replacement or it's some sort of arthritis. Thing is theres no way in hell I would be ever able to afford a hip replacement. Then theres the recovery time. I can't do that. I rely on walking and public transportation. Then I'm on my feet while working. I'd rather chop the damn thing off and hop around the rest of my life. Get piss drunk and hack at it with a kitchen knife. Why did I get cursed with a P.O.S hip.