Life is strange coincidence?
I woke up suddenly to a pivotal scene from star trek the next generation it was a perfect depiction of the situation I find myself in. The episode S4E10 “the loss”. The ships counselor loses her psychic empathic abilities when the ship becomes ensnared by a 2 dimensional organism (string event horizon).
I had a spidey sense of my own I could sense a person gaze at me such that I’d turn immediately to look them directly in the eye. From birth to age 35 it was beyond my control to not look at the person viewing me (almost exclusively directly into that viewers eyes). Now having lost my unique translocation of others gaze I notice people looking but the sensation is different. I no longer feel the urgency/instinct to immediately return their gaze
I had a brain tumor removed not too long ago (approaching 6 months after surgery). My ability to sense others existed prior to the brain tumor being identified, about 2 years ago. From birth I had that ability presumably it is my natural state to feel others attention. My first recollection of it happening was in preschool during nap time when a staff member looked at me through the window from outside the building.
Following the tumors removal I now get “tingles”. My conclusion is my brain as it heals is rerouting and my perception of neurogenesis as circulation returns to atrophied areas and potential decompression of parts of my brain impacted by the tumor is similar to a foot coming back after having “fallen asleep” it occurs in increments and for increasingly shorter durations.
I have other possible explanation(s) too! It is possible to conclude that the tingles I experience are my perception of other people as they think of me. It is a much different empathic perception.
Indeed I’ll recall a specific post or conversation and know instantly someone has viewed or is viewing what I’d said or responded. I’ll pull up the thread (post) at my next earliest opportunity.
Or I’ll sense someone as they recall the interaction/conversation exchange we just had (earlier that day or as much as three days prior). Am I becoming digitally empathic?
Has my spidey sense at being looked at evolved to become (morphed into) a sense of online views or receiving “hits”? A sense of being thought of?
Mostly WTF!
It’s a whole new world!
I had a spidey sense of my own I could sense a person gaze at me such that I’d turn immediately to look them directly in the eye. From birth to age 35 it was beyond my control to not look at the person viewing me (almost exclusively directly into that viewers eyes). Now having lost my unique translocation of others gaze I notice people looking but the sensation is different. I no longer feel the urgency/instinct to immediately return their gaze
I had a brain tumor removed not too long ago (approaching 6 months after surgery). My ability to sense others existed prior to the brain tumor being identified, about 2 years ago. From birth I had that ability presumably it is my natural state to feel others attention. My first recollection of it happening was in preschool during nap time when a staff member looked at me through the window from outside the building.
Following the tumors removal I now get “tingles”. My conclusion is my brain as it heals is rerouting and my perception of neurogenesis as circulation returns to atrophied areas and potential decompression of parts of my brain impacted by the tumor is similar to a foot coming back after having “fallen asleep” it occurs in increments and for increasingly shorter durations.
I have other possible explanation(s) too! It is possible to conclude that the tingles I experience are my perception of other people as they think of me. It is a much different empathic perception.
Indeed I’ll recall a specific post or conversation and know instantly someone has viewed or is viewing what I’d said or responded. I’ll pull up the thread (post) at my next earliest opportunity.
Or I’ll sense someone as they recall the interaction/conversation exchange we just had (earlier that day or as much as three days prior). Am I becoming digitally empathic?
Has my spidey sense at being looked at evolved to become (morphed into) a sense of online views or receiving “hits”? A sense of being thought of?
Mostly WTF!
It’s a whole new world!
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