I struggle to help this primitive human species

I remember when I was born. How I felt. What seemed like a perfect happiness to exist. Having this far superior understanding of life. It was like I remembered what I had been told before I was born into this world. But then I realized it was a nightmare. With violent stupid ignorant parents. Telling me I would burn in hell if I was not good. Using violence to instill this upon me. Introducing me to this book of violence. I rejected all of it as stupid ignorant primitive people who had no idea of the meaning of life or how to live it. But I realize now I must be more kind understanding patient empathetic and more willing to help them grow into better people. I must try to be this way with all of these primitive living beings on this planet. But it is very difficult almost impossible. I just want to leave. Disappear from this world. Die. I struggle to stay alive and try to help this primitive human species.