What was the scheme when I had worked in my past job?

I am paying for my salary... I am sending money to a love scam dummy of Slater and Lorraine!
I am paying through loans. So I never saved a sum!
Why I don't eat and I save for our weekly groceries through my allowance from our family's aid!
I have family abroad who had gave us a loan and allowance amidst the slavic job!