I feel so guilty for bringing trash food from the restaurants

I would usually sneak out from a garbage bin to snack out left over food!
I had stayed in my cousin's resto just to steal the left over food that had caused damage to my brother's kidney!
I feel very sorry! But what I could do... we are so broke we needed to eat like beggars just to survive the hunger!
The effect of losing our millions is a shit one! Why I hate those thieves! That wound is deep that I had cursed those who had received a sum!