I'm so cold, let me in through your window

Where are you? Why do you pervade my thoughts?

I think I am still trying to come to terms with you not being the person I hoped you to be, and that my value to you weighed far less than your pride.

I wanted you to respect me more. I wanted you to respect me. I wanted you to provide our friendship with the dignity it deserved. The dignity I deserved.

I think about going back in time and undoing it, but the truth is it was always going to be this way. I held out hope that you wouldn’t be the person I knew you to be. It was the first time I wish I had been wrong.