Why it have to be so hard!

Men i got close with as friends or dating, all of them turned out bad, in them good ones turned out bad/betrayers/tried to pull me down/users and even bad ones turned out bad when i tried to change them ! I feel disillusioned about the existence of good men. I feel like i am chasing a delusion. Maybe all men r pretending and only want to dominance over women.

I never been in any long-term relationship, i feel like i am missing out on a part of life which i wanted. Idk how it's like having a partner... i am 25. I feel worried about my age and also existance of good men. I don't want a bad partner... I feel so depressed that i not able to have a good partner...