I want to restore humanity’s faith

I’m not an easy person to love, as much as need it I must not cave. I can’t let my pointless emotions get in the way of my goals. Don’t get to close I don’t want you to love me because that means I’ll disappoint you. I have spent all my life being ruled by emotions and it has caused me tremendous heart ache. I don’t think I can physically survive if I take anymore pain. It’s not fair to the other because I have nothing to give. I gave all the broken pieces of my heart to the world so it can fill theirs. I’m empty .I have nothing else to give. I’ve given all I can and it’s going to physically kill me if I continue. When I love I poor everything into it. I’m still lost. Let me recover all the pieces of my broken heart so the love you give won’t drain like an oil leak. I’m broken don’t waste your time on loving someone who will never be able to believe it. That will leave you empty. Leave me here stranded. I don’t want your oil I want to see you succeed. I am the sacrifice. I’m the weak one. I must push everyone away it’s for the better right I don’t want them to run out because they are taking care of me. I’m a person who isn’t ment to be loved, and I’ve come to terms with that so I must continue helping the world. I will make the world a better place I swear. I’ll do it alone if I have to. No more strings or attachments. This is priority. Then the night falls and I’m alone with the world on my shoulders. I know at least they are safe from not loving me. Safe from disappointment, burdens, sadness and safe from heart ache. When will I shine bright enough to light the way of happiness to the world? I will keep trying. I won’t fail the world I love them that’s why I refuse them to love me or be held back by me. They will succeed.I will not let them fail. I believe in them. There is a place for us.