You really answered your own question. Tell yourself the truth. The truth will set you free. There was no relationship. It hadn't even gotten a good start. And who wants to be with a liar? I know it's hard and it hurts, but now that you know who the man is, why would you want to press that and push yourself on him? I'm not saying you're a bad person. But your judgment here is only hurting yourself and I don't want to see you hurt. You're taking this much to personal. Sometimes our feelings get confused because it's not really the person that were upset about losing. Instead, it hurts because that person is not who we thought they were, nor felt what we thought they felt. No amount of hoping will change that. He just has a different need or want than you do. He's not emotionally available and the sooner you move on, the better it will be and this wanting to meet him in person is not for him and it's not for you except for you're just wanting to see him again because you miss him but that will only push him further away. Find someone who will love you as you deserve. You're a beautiful woman so go find that person who will reciprocate your love. Now you know for sure who he is and that's a good thing, so that you can move on. If he had been satisfied with the relationship with you then he would not have be looking at other women. Who wants to be around somebody that like that who's not faithful? You can never have a person like that and it shouldn't be forced. I knew somebody like that and I wouldn't have that man back if my life depended on it. I love myself more than that then to push myself on someone. Please move on so you can be happy and find that person that was meant just for you. Don't waste precious time and years on a person who is not emotionally available. You know that in your heart so listen to your heart and love yourself enough to move on. 🌹🤗