It's astounding how someone could throw away four years...

It's like it meant nothing to them. It meant everything to me...I gave it my all and moved mountains but to have that thrown away? I will never understand people, much less like them in a general sense. Not saying there aren't any genuine individuals in the world, I see them here, it's just I don't know how to have some sort of trust with people or grace. Too many people acting like the whore of Babylon. She was lucky I wasn't like that and treated her better than what she deserve. But I finally confronted it tonight. I feel better to have let the beast out and clarify how I feel and how she is treating me. But what's left is another broken soul. Idk how to conduct myself after all this or if having an intimate connection with someone is even worth it anymore.