I Believe Age Doesnt Define Maturity
Age Doesn't Matter... Ever since at the very young age, I realized that I have a mind of 30 years old woman inside of me. I understand most of adults things around me. I cried watching a TV drama because I understand the problems of the adult main character have. I love being around my mom's friends because I like to listen to grown up stuffs.
When I acted like this around classmates the same age as mine, they were freaked out & ignored me. They think it's so weird to have a girl with a very high pitched voice talking about grown up stuffs. I realized that my voice & cute looks doesn't matched my mind, I changed. Now, it's the only thing I regret in my life and I wished I could go back to not change.
I changed into a naive girly girl. I acted like I don't know something even though I knew it. My classmates finally want to be friend with me and I thought this is the sacrifice that I must do to socialize with others around my age. (Yes, I was 7 years old and already thinking about doing sacrifices in life)
It came with a price. Growing up, people around me treat me like a princess. I stuck being this naive princess until now. During high schools, girls didn't talk about teenage problems with me because I still acted like a naive little princess and they thought I was immature. I was left alone, no one to talk with. I didn't realize I couldn't be that naive girl forever. I don't know how to change, how to act like my own age.
I think I was desperate and I don't want to let my mother down. The first thing parents said on our first day of school is to try to be friends with others. I don't know why I took it so seriously.
Since I acted like 7 years old all the time, I lost my 30 years old along the way. I thought I couldn't never found that mature me anymore but then I finally realize I only acted mature around my mother. She's the only person who love that side of me. Even my father and my 4 other siblings think I'm weird, a cute looks and a high pitched voice never matched a mature personality.
Now, I know I couldn't go back to the old me. I started to just being the current me. 30 years old or 7 years old, all of it is still me. I want to accept who I am and live happily. I'm proud to be a 24 years old lady with a 30 years old mind & a 7 years old heart. :)
When I acted like this around classmates the same age as mine, they were freaked out & ignored me. They think it's so weird to have a girl with a very high pitched voice talking about grown up stuffs. I realized that my voice & cute looks doesn't matched my mind, I changed. Now, it's the only thing I regret in my life and I wished I could go back to not change.
I changed into a naive girly girl. I acted like I don't know something even though I knew it. My classmates finally want to be friend with me and I thought this is the sacrifice that I must do to socialize with others around my age. (Yes, I was 7 years old and already thinking about doing sacrifices in life)
It came with a price. Growing up, people around me treat me like a princess. I stuck being this naive princess until now. During high schools, girls didn't talk about teenage problems with me because I still acted like a naive little princess and they thought I was immature. I was left alone, no one to talk with. I didn't realize I couldn't be that naive girl forever. I don't know how to change, how to act like my own age.
I think I was desperate and I don't want to let my mother down. The first thing parents said on our first day of school is to try to be friends with others. I don't know why I took it so seriously.
Since I acted like 7 years old all the time, I lost my 30 years old along the way. I thought I couldn't never found that mature me anymore but then I finally realize I only acted mature around my mother. She's the only person who love that side of me. Even my father and my 4 other siblings think I'm weird, a cute looks and a high pitched voice never matched a mature personality.
Now, I know I couldn't go back to the old me. I started to just being the current me. 30 years old or 7 years old, all of it is still me. I want to accept who I am and live happily. I'm proud to be a 24 years old lady with a 30 years old mind & a 7 years old heart. :)
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