i want revenge on my birth mother for what she did to me

my whole life i've spent living in anger and rage and hate and suffering and pain and darkness. i've been living with a heart filled with anger rage hate suffering pain and darkness
i vow that one day i will find my birth mother and i will file a lawsuit and sue her for life long permanent damages and take revenge on her for what she's done to me that lead cause me to become disabled and sue my birth mother for $300,00 dollars in damages
because of her i have to suffer for what she did to me i want her to suffer as i have for what she has done to me she's caused me suffering with permanent life long irreversible conditions i want revenge on my birth mother for what she did to me