Tired of being alone, afraid of not being alone

I've come to the realization that I'm going to be alone for a long time, if not forever and I have to accept it. I want a relationship, I want to be happy, I crave affection, love and human touch... I want to be around people who understand, or at least truly accepts me for who I am. It's not that I'm antisocial, it's just hard to connect, because people talk, but they have nothing to say.

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Ynotisay · M

OK. But in all reality, at 18-21 just how long have you been alone? Your call but I might slow my roll with the 'forever' thing at this stage in your life. You've got a little ways to go. Don't want to create realities that aren't based in reality.

LickOrRice · 22-25, F

@Ynotisay I've been alone for 21 years, no one has ever cared/tried to stay. I am a “temporary friend”, a placeholder for the next person. Sure, I have my parents and brother, but come on, it's not that hard to see that they're just there because they feel obligated/that it is their duty to do so as parents.
But ja... Thanks for the input though, I appreciate.

Ynotisay · M

@LickOrRice OK. But just to toss one more little nugget out there that you might want to consider.
"Thoughts become things." That's true.
Think bad thoughts and bad things happen. Reverse it and the outcome will be different.That's how it works. Not always and not immediately. But it WILL. For sure. Good luck.

LickOrRice · 22-25, F

@Ynotisay True. Thanks for the optimism, I'll take your words to heart and try thinking more positively.

Ynotisay · M

@LickOrRice Really glad to hear that. You've got this. 👍