I don't want to be a loser...I don't want to hurt

It's like no matter how hard I tried all these years to be something or someone better I still ended up to be the loser I never wanted to grow up to be.

What's even the point anymore. I feel so upset and discouraged.

No lasting change ever really happens or has happened.

No matter how much progress I seem to make somehow I ended up right back at the start again.