I haven't been feeling too good lately

I wish I was stronger. I used to be stronger. I have been through some pretty rough times in the past. Now though it feels like I have never gone through them before because I feel I have become weaker.

I have developed a routine in my work/life and it is necessary to have it. Yet at times like recently it feels so depressing and pointless.

I have fallen out of love with life. Without any sort of love in life why even stay alive for and work hard?

I don't want to repeat the same mistakes again and yet it seems like life just wants to keep throwing me into this cycle. I'm tired of that, of these recurring situations that have been happening for the past few years.