Vent ab shi

Well nothing happend with T,im not surprised,but i know at one point we both liked each other back,she is still in my life as my best friend and im grateful for that.
But i'll never forget the only person in this world that made me feel heard
He listened to my family problems,love problems,everything,and he just got me.
Robert,there is not a day where im not thinking of you,im wondering everyday if i could've stopped you from taking your own life.
I feel very guilty for this,for not trying harder to get you off the drugs,but i had no bussiness calling your dealer at 15 begging him to stop selling to you.
For 3 years you were my second brother,someone who i considered family,i would've done everything for you.
I still remember how i felt back in september 2024 when one of your friends called me and told me you killed yourself by OD,and i'm thinking everyday it should've been me instead.
I hope heaven treats you well
And i can't wait to see you again
And i hope you're watching over me
And you are so loved and missed.
To everyone who lost a loved one,we will be okay
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