Seeing so many people talk about EP is crazy

I was on there but I was young (for reference I’m 24 now) and honestly I’ve gotta agree that place was shut down for a good enough reason.

Im not posting this for sympathy but just to vent. I used it as a place to help me figure out my confusion I was feeling at the time (gender wise). I was always clear about my age with everyone I spoke to and they all said the same things “you’re mature for you age” was the most common one. But I wasn’t. I was barely a teen at the time. And I was giving them what they wanted every single time believing they thought I was mature for my age but being older now I realised they didn’t. They were taking advantage of me. They were grooming me. Looking back I’m ashamed of the things I did but I’m more ashamed at the 20 30 40 year olds who took advantage of me.

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HijabaDabbaDoo · F

I was under 18 on EP too and freshly 18 on here. I got told I was mature for my age or I was an "old soul"

When you're younger it's received as a compliment. When you're older you realise it's a groomers favourite thing to say. I've done things that embarrass me looking back at it but I also now recognise the patterns. When you're coming to terms with your identity, you'll find a large portion of people who will alienate, "other" or straight up lash out at you, so when you come across others who supposedly embrace you, you feel disarmed and safe. It's a false sense of security because their need for a power exchange is being fed all while playing friend. They know what they're doing. I'm glad you don't blame yourself 💙

BabyDolls · 22-25, T

@HijabaDabbaDoo I was told the same things

Honestly I never realised until I was a little older. I’ve never really spoken about how lost I truly felt at that time and how realising they didn’t care about me hurt me. Thinking they were embracing me as myself just to realise I was literally a fetish/ sexualisation for them hurt more than I’ll ever admit to. I’m so so sorry you went through what you did. I hope it didn’t effect you as i imagine it might have💙

HijabaDabbaDoo · F

@BabyDolls i'm sorry you had to experience that. You're not a commodity or a spokesperson. Unfortunately one of the most difficult and unspoken things queer children experience is exposure to predators because they lack the same safe space as their counterparts. It's a vulnerable space to be in.

I'm good. My experience was um weird but it didn't take a knock on any parts of my identity. I think people think it has to be sexual for it to be considered grooming but that's not true. There's layers and it's all exploitative af.

BabyDolls · 22-25, T

@HijabaDabbaDoo I think that’s something people need to realise about queer children. A lack of safe space leads to many situations like this. Thank you for explaining it better than I can😌

I completely agree, although majority of it turned sexual in my situation it was rarely that straight away. It’s the way they make you feel safe, like they understand you. It’s managing to earn your trust to begin with where it starts. I’m glad to hear it’s not done anything too bad for you🫶but although yours wasn’t the same as mine it doesn’t mean yours is anything less. If you do need to talk about what happened at any time I’m here for you always💖

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