I have a dream 🤩 [I Love Creating Groups For My Ep Friends]
Finally. It just dawned on me. That I will finally have something to be excited about every day.
As a child I had that, people kept telling me it's impossible, but I'd still say it, that I'll do it. Up until one day, I questioned it. And that short glimpse is what killed my dream. I would still want to do it, but I just didn't believe wholeheartedly in it no more. It was slipping away, and shortly I was not excited about it no more. And it was like a sad dream of the past. So what I learnt from that is that as soon as u doubt your dreams, even for a second - it's done. You lost it.
And I think that's about the time when I had my 1st depression. At the time I didn't think it was related, but it is awfully close time period, plus afterwards in life, I was slowly becoming more negative, cynical and doubtful of my life. Then 2nd depression came. I think what made me get over it, was releasing all my expectations of myself, and just live, no matter how small my life would be. I mean it couldn't be worse 😆
However still, even while feeling liberated, I still wasn't really happy. I'd experience a lot more moments of joy, but I still felt like there's a piece of me that was not in its place.
And I gotto say, I did try getting other dreams along the way, besides becoming rich, but none of them really stuck and weren't really making me excited, like before.
Today, Tue, 17 Nov 2020, in the afternoon, while laying in bed with the blinds down, in a dark room, after a *cough* clarity 😂 I realized what is my dream for my life, and I love it, because it is true. It just makes so much sense. That is the reason why I would even want to come into this world.
My dream is to live the best adventure.
As a child I had that, people kept telling me it's impossible, but I'd still say it, that I'll do it. Up until one day, I questioned it. And that short glimpse is what killed my dream. I would still want to do it, but I just didn't believe wholeheartedly in it no more. It was slipping away, and shortly I was not excited about it no more. And it was like a sad dream of the past. So what I learnt from that is that as soon as u doubt your dreams, even for a second - it's done. You lost it.
And I think that's about the time when I had my 1st depression. At the time I didn't think it was related, but it is awfully close time period, plus afterwards in life, I was slowly becoming more negative, cynical and doubtful of my life. Then 2nd depression came. I think what made me get over it, was releasing all my expectations of myself, and just live, no matter how small my life would be. I mean it couldn't be worse 😆
However still, even while feeling liberated, I still wasn't really happy. I'd experience a lot more moments of joy, but I still felt like there's a piece of me that was not in its place.
And I gotto say, I did try getting other dreams along the way, besides becoming rich, but none of them really stuck and weren't really making me excited, like before.
Today, Tue, 17 Nov 2020, in the afternoon, while laying in bed with the blinds down, in a dark room, after a *cough* clarity 😂 I realized what is my dream for my life, and I love it, because it is true. It just makes so much sense. That is the reason why I would even want to come into this world.
My dream is to live the best adventure.
