Vent; a "liar" ruined my life ages ago. Please be kinder!
A weirdo stranger online in ‘09 MySpace gaslighted me using multiple these fake personas to make me feel “responsible” for “two friends trying to kill themselves” (their words are as fresh today as they were back in Feb ‘09) these multiple fake accounts made it look like a pile-on attack was happening to me. I ended up quitting the site…
Then... I had a breakdown, I couldn’t sit my school GCSE exams, I kept worrying that these “friends” had *died* 💀 of their injuries.
Yearssss later I found out that the fake accounts (didn’t know was fake at the time) that was then messaging me were all using pics of scene kid models. They were *all* fake accounts in other words!
Problem is - it f**ks with my head… still!😢
But even though I know the accounts are all fake - I can’t *prove* what they *said* was a f**ked up lie; or can I?
I kinda seek certainty, closure or weird-reassurance in messed up ways like researching the fake accounts, combing obits and trawling mortality databases and dark shit that makes me feel temporary relief (but only sometimes) mostly the toxic guilt and sense of anxiety over: “was I responsible?”
F**ks with my head! I kinda deep-down *want* to accept that some messed up teenager halfway around the globe was trolling me with multiple fakes because they themselves are f**ked up in the head…
I know facts about the culprit themselves btw. They are a horrible person.
I found the user on an anon-forum and they *admitted* (I tricked her into trusting me) to having 200 accounts, moving these fakes of theirs from MySpace to Facebook (Feb ‘09 MySpace was where it happened; my “event” date) and pretty much they admitted to making lies (a few I know of are; taking a models car-crash photos to pass off as their own car crash. Taking photos of a baby in an open casket to pass off as their own child loss. Taking gross, graphic SH pics off some sick-online-challenge to pass off as theirs. Taking pics of babies and kids to pass off as theirs. They pretty much they said they faked a s**cide “attempt” with one girl (a fake) that might not be my experience, so it adds questions (my experience involved “two friends” tryin’ to k*ll thems*lves and potentially dying💀 - that’s my biggest fear; someone actually dying - which is f**ked-up because in order for it to be true I need to believe that a bunch of fake accounts told me the *truth* - which is extremely unlikely)
So yeah… rant/vent/dump over…
Please share and insights or suggestions that might help me? I’m tired of it all 😭
Then... I had a breakdown, I couldn’t sit my school GCSE exams, I kept worrying that these “friends” had *died* 💀 of their injuries.
Yearssss later I found out that the fake accounts (didn’t know was fake at the time) that was then messaging me were all using pics of scene kid models. They were *all* fake accounts in other words!
Problem is - it f**ks with my head… still!😢
But even though I know the accounts are all fake - I can’t *prove* what they *said* was a f**ked up lie; or can I?
I kinda seek certainty, closure or weird-reassurance in messed up ways like researching the fake accounts, combing obits and trawling mortality databases and dark shit that makes me feel temporary relief (but only sometimes) mostly the toxic guilt and sense of anxiety over: “was I responsible?”
F**ks with my head! I kinda deep-down *want* to accept that some messed up teenager halfway around the globe was trolling me with multiple fakes because they themselves are f**ked up in the head…
I know facts about the culprit themselves btw. They are a horrible person.
I found the user on an anon-forum and they *admitted* (I tricked her into trusting me) to having 200 accounts, moving these fakes of theirs from MySpace to Facebook (Feb ‘09 MySpace was where it happened; my “event” date) and pretty much they admitted to making lies (a few I know of are; taking a models car-crash photos to pass off as their own car crash. Taking photos of a baby in an open casket to pass off as their own child loss. Taking gross, graphic SH pics off some sick-online-challenge to pass off as theirs. Taking pics of babies and kids to pass off as theirs. They pretty much they said they faked a s**cide “attempt” with one girl (a fake) that might not be my experience, so it adds questions (my experience involved “two friends” tryin’ to k*ll thems*lves and potentially dying💀 - that’s my biggest fear; someone actually dying - which is f**ked-up because in order for it to be true I need to believe that a bunch of fake accounts told me the *truth* - which is extremely unlikely)
So yeah… rant/vent/dump over…
Please share and insights or suggestions that might help me? I’m tired of it all 😭
