Few years ago I had tried to die .
I still don't find a reason why should I live .
Parents are the reason which make me feel to end life immediately ,
I lived for some years away from them .
But I felt that they are old now , I must live with them and support them ,
but it causes me more wish to die , bearing and living with them .
Secondly , that girl whom I loved , she left . She hadn't loved any other guy yet , but she won't love me .
Maybe she might find another guy , but I still may cherish her .
Thirdly , racist people .
Today I find a portuguese guy calling Moroccan guy as Ugly brown Mthrfckr .
This racist hate is unimaginable .
Americans are expert at it , even on Sw or other social media , I had seen old people calling dark people as Terrorists , ugly , etc .
Even a white guy posted about African guy who was imprisoned by American police only because he was brown .
And the incident of a pregnant african woman who was forced to lay on ground , with her hands tied ,
and her two kids were tied as well , and they kept screaming for help for 2 hours .
I will not go to Usa , nor to Russia as well , where the Neo Nazi groups exist who Cut the throat directly of people who are not orange .
Africans invented fire , languages , architecture .
Which made apes to intellectual humans .
Still white race is superior ?
Arabs invented physics ,
Others invented Mathematics , Surgery , etc .
Europeans only compiled all the things to make technology of today .
But still white race is superior .
And it is in danger .
Hence Hitler , Bush , Biden , Putin exist .
Racism doesn't work well , they hate every race , except chinese .
China is the father of Europeans .
How can I live in this world of racism .
But I not wish to be white as well , no matter how much Europeans try to change the history , even Genetic evidence tells that all humans stem from Africans .
And girlfriend who doesn't love me , I only wish she live a happy life , even if she love other person .
And trying to be a responsible son to old parents , not know how can I be responsible towards self as well ?
Parents are the reason which make me feel to end life immediately ,
I lived for some years away from them .
But I felt that they are old now , I must live with them and support them ,
but it causes me more wish to die , bearing and living with them .
Secondly , that girl whom I loved , she left . She hadn't loved any other guy yet , but she won't love me .
Maybe she might find another guy , but I still may cherish her .
Thirdly , racist people .
Today I find a portuguese guy calling Moroccan guy as Ugly brown Mthrfckr .
This racist hate is unimaginable .
Americans are expert at it , even on Sw or other social media , I had seen old people calling dark people as Terrorists , ugly , etc .
Even a white guy posted about African guy who was imprisoned by American police only because he was brown .
And the incident of a pregnant african woman who was forced to lay on ground , with her hands tied ,
and her two kids were tied as well , and they kept screaming for help for 2 hours .
I will not go to Usa , nor to Russia as well , where the Neo Nazi groups exist who Cut the throat directly of people who are not orange .
Africans invented fire , languages , architecture .
Which made apes to intellectual humans .
Still white race is superior ?
Arabs invented physics ,
Others invented Mathematics , Surgery , etc .
Europeans only compiled all the things to make technology of today .
But still white race is superior .
And it is in danger .
Hence Hitler , Bush , Biden , Putin exist .
Racism doesn't work well , they hate every race , except chinese .
China is the father of Europeans .
How can I live in this world of racism .
But I not wish to be white as well , no matter how much Europeans try to change the history , even Genetic evidence tells that all humans stem from Africans .
And girlfriend who doesn't love me , I only wish she live a happy life , even if she love other person .
And trying to be a responsible son to old parents , not know how can I be responsible towards self as well ?
