It is weird because I know how bad they are for me but that does not stop me from loving them. I love everything about them since my first time trying so long ago now and I have zero plans to quit
The playwright Sam Shepard had a line about smoking in that it "gives you a feeling of controlling your own destiny." I kind of like that. It's also pleasurable as hell. Some of us just lean towards pleasure I guess.
Pleasure in the moment... and a sad, stinging, painful death for your loved ones to watch as your lungs try valiantly to function under the toxic conditions you insisted you could not live without.