I Am Drunk Drunk Drunk

Only 6:30 but well on my way to getting drunk. I know I shouldn't I've been trying hard not to drink. I always end up thunking of all the mistakes ive made and how many things I've dine that I'm so ashamed of. Ive been so stupid amd awful. It feels like there's no point anymore to anything. I'm being pulled in every direction and going nowhere