Yeah, I was trying to do the same all last month. Not trying to sound like on some high horse because I ain't but I recently decided that I should probably feel those negative emotions and let them have their day, week, month or years. It won't feel comfortable but ultimately it's what confirms one is alive. We should never be ashamed or afraid of our feelings, it's what makes us human. Easier said than done of course.
I just relapsed after being sober for a week. The longest I've been sober was 7 months. Part of the reason why I was able to stay sober for that long was because I was locked up for 3 months. As much as I wish I could say it was just my own willpower, it really wasn't.
Good luck to you man, don't sweat it! I like how you phrased it: "drunk phase", that's all it is, just a phase. It's all part of the journey. Some people know what it's like, others don't. I'm someone who kinda does.
Cheers 🍻 I'm sipping on some vodka and Dos Equis, gotta get sober before tomorrow though because I start my new job.
