I just don't think shoving a ton of meds down my throat is really what I need.

It’s not. You know what ails you and what you need to do. You’re in a tough situation with your ex but shoving meds down your throat to make you feel good is not the answer. You are having very valid feelings of concern about things. Many doctors shove meds on people for the prescription cutback. My grandmother died from this. Don’t fall for it.