I just don't think shoving a ton of meds down my throat is really what I need.

Maybe not
Sometimes..getting some fresh air to clear your head and to put things into perspective helps...sounds like abreak is needed

Only if they help. I hate taking pills and think it is easy way out sometimes for doctors

Three doesn't seem like a ton, just saying

I have four in morning

Tough situation there

It’s not. You know what ails you and what you need to do. You’re in a tough situation with your ex but shoving meds down your throat to make you feel good is not the answer. You are having very valid feelings of concern about things. Many doctors shove meds on people for the prescription cutback. My grandmother died from this. Don’t fall for it.