How did you feel about cigarettes and smoking 2 years after quitting?
Ok so it has basically been one and a half month since I quit smoking, and I have now realized that it will take a very long time before I can truly focus again.
A lot of people work with something that doesn't require intense focus, and even such hobbies like knitting, puzzles etc. I both work with, and have hobbies which require constant intense focus, being drawing (for so called work as I make personalized commissions for people), and for my hobbies I switch, but to mention an example I am currently really wanting to create a RPG-maker game, which is a huge project -- but it could also be writing a 10000 word story, all things which require a lot of focus.
I smoked since I was 13 years old, so I can't remember times before very well. I was creative then too, but they are not clear memories. When it comes to a time that I remember clearly, the only way I was ever capable of really focusing, was when chain-smoking during the activity. Several years ago, I stopped chain-smoking, and generally stopped smoking outside. I was never capable of working on a big project since then, as I'd be unfocused waiting for myself to take a break and go outside for a cigarette. Now that I have quit, I still cannot focus.
Will the focus which I had before I started smoking, and while chain-smoking, ever actually return to me? That is my question. I just want to be able to work on deep projects again, without chain-smoking.
I am constantly utterly stressed still, as I have smoked at least one pack every day since I was 13 years old, and it did something to my nervous system; now my nervous system is completely messed up, and I am exceptionally irritable as well. I really hope that the irritability goes away, and that the focus return, even if it takes a looong, long time. Let me know if it did so for you? I need someone to tell me that things get better. 🤧
PS. I realize I talk about this all the time lately but it's just a lot. I am not some weird "quitting-smoking-obsessed" crazy person, I just haven't even felt like writing about anything else lately.
A lot of people work with something that doesn't require intense focus, and even such hobbies like knitting, puzzles etc. I both work with, and have hobbies which require constant intense focus, being drawing (for so called work as I make personalized commissions for people), and for my hobbies I switch, but to mention an example I am currently really wanting to create a RPG-maker game, which is a huge project -- but it could also be writing a 10000 word story, all things which require a lot of focus.
I smoked since I was 13 years old, so I can't remember times before very well. I was creative then too, but they are not clear memories. When it comes to a time that I remember clearly, the only way I was ever capable of really focusing, was when chain-smoking during the activity. Several years ago, I stopped chain-smoking, and generally stopped smoking outside. I was never capable of working on a big project since then, as I'd be unfocused waiting for myself to take a break and go outside for a cigarette. Now that I have quit, I still cannot focus.
Will the focus which I had before I started smoking, and while chain-smoking, ever actually return to me? That is my question. I just want to be able to work on deep projects again, without chain-smoking.
I am constantly utterly stressed still, as I have smoked at least one pack every day since I was 13 years old, and it did something to my nervous system; now my nervous system is completely messed up, and I am exceptionally irritable as well. I really hope that the irritability goes away, and that the focus return, even if it takes a looong, long time. Let me know if it did so for you? I need someone to tell me that things get better. 🤧
PS. I realize I talk about this all the time lately but it's just a lot. I am not some weird "quitting-smoking-obsessed" crazy person, I just haven't even felt like writing about anything else lately.
