Update: I miss her. But I need to understand that it's normal and to stop suppressing it 🗣️

Of course it's gonna feel like a drug withdrawal, dummy. It's okay to feel your feelings, stop acting like they're not there.

I promise you, it'll sting less with time. And then you'll be able to look back and laugh at how much you idolized someone who really wasn't all that. She was the lucky one, just not you lol.