Right or wrong? - I look at a porn site because I feel interested in erotic pleasure for the first time in a month...

And within 30 seconds I feel disgusted, dirty, unworthy, etc. and close the tab. Note I don't have any sort of significant other so sex for real is not feasible.

This is a pretty normal cycle for me now - maybe once I month I feel a curious interest, and like turning on the TV it takes less than a minute before I realise it's the wrong thing to do and stop it.

I reckon as I've moved into accepting 'singlesness' as my core lifestyle choice into my mature adult future the interest in sexual experiences simply fades away because it's no longer important (and tbh never ever really was).

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laurieluvsit · 26-30, F

Antiquated Old School Prudish Religious Dogma has conditioned you to react this way.

It may be hopelessly embedded too deep into your DNA now to rid yourself of it.

Try seeking an AASEPT Counselor to help you through this ...if it be possible.

zonavar68 · 56-60, M

@laurieluvsit I'm at peace with it because I don't need or require sex to have a fulfilling adult life. I'm 56 not 26 so drive for erotic play is pretty much just 'background radiation' status. I've got much bigger important priorities. I'm well past the 'fenceline' defining sexual interactions as 'something nice if they happen but life doesn't depend on them to feel "normal"'. I do not have a 'normal'.

That said, I feel like I am not supposed to find thoughts of sexual enjoyment as negative influences. I don't think there's much religious dogma going on but my mum (after divorce from my dad when I was 12) was never very helpful to educating me about sex and sex related topics. I think I've been neuro-divergent since conception so that's hard-wired me to feel certain ways about certain things including adult human sexual interactions.

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