I love kids, and I love the idea of a happy family in my later years..but good GOLLY am I glad I never had kids. I struggle enough to keep myself
alive, and rarely feel much more than a person who exists.
I cannot fathom the hostage negotiations if I was in a partnership that was not a true partnership, with someone who weaponized their incompetence, or if I worked a FT job then came home and did most of the "invisible" labor.
TBH, people seem much happier having kids then splitting 50/50 joint custody; but the idea of being FOREVER tied to someone I didn't love...I can see how that would harm the kids! Resentments would form btwn the partners, and that...is partially..how children become scapegoats.
I always felt like the pool filter in my family. I took all the shit so that everyone else could have a relaxing pool day. I have to say that I am PROUD I never had children.
Again, not to degrade, unappreciate, or down the AMAZING parents on my page. I have grand admiration for the work you do!!
But me personally..I feel that I was a chainbreaker when I broke my family's cycle..at least in my own home. There are things I wasn't taught about life, and horrid things I WAS taught..that I fear I would have passed down.
My dad's bday is on the 3rd. No one in my family but my aunt and cousin acknowledged my bday, which sucks. But yeah..I am deep in thought again at 5am.
Feeling pretty pissed tbh. I feel like I probably WOULD have had kids (in a happy home), if I had been given the tools. That choice feels as if it was taken from me in some ways.
At the same time, I am so glad I don't have to raise a child in Trump's Amerikkka.
I cannot fathom the hostage negotiations if I was in a partnership that was not a true partnership, with someone who weaponized their incompetence, or if I worked a FT job then came home and did most of the "invisible" labor.
TBH, people seem much happier having kids then splitting 50/50 joint custody; but the idea of being FOREVER tied to someone I didn't love...I can see how that would harm the kids! Resentments would form btwn the partners, and that...is partially..how children become scapegoats.
I always felt like the pool filter in my family. I took all the shit so that everyone else could have a relaxing pool day. I have to say that I am PROUD I never had children.
Again, not to degrade, unappreciate, or down the AMAZING parents on my page. I have grand admiration for the work you do!!
But me personally..I feel that I was a chainbreaker when I broke my family's cycle..at least in my own home. There are things I wasn't taught about life, and horrid things I WAS taught..that I fear I would have passed down.
My dad's bday is on the 3rd. No one in my family but my aunt and cousin acknowledged my bday, which sucks. But yeah..I am deep in thought again at 5am.
Feeling pretty pissed tbh. I feel like I probably WOULD have had kids (in a happy home), if I had been given the tools. That choice feels as if it was taken from me in some ways.
At the same time, I am so glad I don't have to raise a child in Trump's Amerikkka.
41-45, F
