Socializing fail
I don't even know what to think of all this. It's been a long time since I posted here on similar worlds (experience project back then) but i really need to vent.
My emotions are all out of place and that's mainly because of relationships or lack of. When I'm not thinking of guys, I'm at peace but when i do, I'm a wreck by overthinking things.
So here are the issues I'm facing if anyone cares to read. :(
1) i recently confessed to my crush i liked him. He told me he has gf, but he rejected me graciously. (Didn't treat me rude )
2) i felt great because i knew now I could move on...or so i thought
3) its hard to avoid seeing him and i end up seeing him again. I thought I'd be strong but after seeing him i felt emotional all over again.
4) i meet up with a guy friend who I'd been seeing for close to year and i confided in him with my dilemma. After meeting him today and discussing my dilemma, he has not replied back to message after i told I thanked him for giving me a listen.
5) I'm once again now an emotional mess because my "gut instinct" keeps telling me my guy friend likes/liked me and me telling him about my crush perhaps hurt him?
6) my guy friend has a gf now but he still showed interest in hearing me out up until i told him about my crush
7) so now I can only see this guy friend as someone whose only intention was to get me to be his gf
8) perhaps I'm jumping to conclusions and he's really just busy....but hes always replied to me in a pretty quick manner so....that's why I believe he just lost all interest in me friend and more.
There's so much more I want to add but my head is not thinking straight.
Does it seem my guy friend liked me? He told me he only liked me as a friend so I'm confused why he's ignoring me now.
I honestly feel so dumb right now.
My emotions are all out of place and that's mainly because of relationships or lack of. When I'm not thinking of guys, I'm at peace but when i do, I'm a wreck by overthinking things.
So here are the issues I'm facing if anyone cares to read. :(
1) i recently confessed to my crush i liked him. He told me he has gf, but he rejected me graciously. (Didn't treat me rude )
2) i felt great because i knew now I could move on...or so i thought
3) its hard to avoid seeing him and i end up seeing him again. I thought I'd be strong but after seeing him i felt emotional all over again.
4) i meet up with a guy friend who I'd been seeing for close to year and i confided in him with my dilemma. After meeting him today and discussing my dilemma, he has not replied back to message after i told I thanked him for giving me a listen.
5) I'm once again now an emotional mess because my "gut instinct" keeps telling me my guy friend likes/liked me and me telling him about my crush perhaps hurt him?
6) my guy friend has a gf now but he still showed interest in hearing me out up until i told him about my crush
7) so now I can only see this guy friend as someone whose only intention was to get me to be his gf
8) perhaps I'm jumping to conclusions and he's really just busy....but hes always replied to me in a pretty quick manner so....that's why I believe he just lost all interest in me friend and more.
There's so much more I want to add but my head is not thinking straight.
Does it seem my guy friend liked me? He told me he only liked me as a friend so I'm confused why he's ignoring me now.
I honestly feel so dumb right now.
31-35, F
