I Am Working On Myself

Oh my goodness my mind is in circles. I am going threw a divorce. The main reason is because, after years of trying to get to my spouse on an emotional level, somewhere inside I gave up trying.
And I started to "fall in love" with other men.
I don't intend for it to happen, believe me. I just wanted my marriage to work out, but it just doesn't. And I realize that now.
My health is failing me. I can't get sleep or the right food. My work schedule is crazy. My 4 year old needs me most and I feel like I can't be there for her like I need to be, and I can't figure out why, I love her so much.
So many things are going tHough my mind.
My heart is in so much pain.
I just want to be there for my kid... how??? I'm exhausted all the time. She deserves more then me.

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Kpinkheartcrystals · 51-55, F

It sounds like you were married to the wrong person and it just didn't work out. It happens to a lot of people. I went through the same thing, but I stayed almost 20 years!! It's good you avoided all that. It is going to be tough having a young child and being on your own. I wouldn't know how to handle that, but keep reaching out, and keep your heart open. There are so many good people in the world who will help. People who can show you the way, or lend a hand when you need it. It sounds hard, but keep a positive attitude to attract good things to you. You deserve to be happy, and your daughter does too. It is so tough, but so worth it!! Your daughter has a good mom who loves her very much.

weirdmofo · 36-40, F

@Kpinkheartcrystals: she is so wonderful, and i wish i could show her how much i love her... but the depth of my love for her is infinite.