@AndrewC1993 it started when I was in middle school. I started having nightmares from abuse and wouldnt sleep to avoid them. Ive had better years, but I miss a good sleep without medication.
@Paintedfox I'm sorry to hear about that. As long as you are having those better years now, maybe something to settle the mind, a natural herb of some kind might help the feeling of feeling relaxed. Or a bit of alcohol.