I Am My Own Worst Enemy

I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. Why I can't seem to move on when everyone is telling me that's what I have to do.
How do you move on from a relationship that seemed perfect? When he seems so lost and unsure.
He went out with his friends for the 1st time in over 10 months. Stupidly I asked 2 of our mutual friends how he was. I know I shouldn't have and no, neither one has talked to me. I don't think he's coping too well and it's making it harder for me to try and move on. I'm adamant that he's depressed and pushing me away. If he was okay wouldn't they have said?

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Rickichickie · 56-60, F

What can I say, that it gets better? Yes it does but it takes time. It took me so long when it happened the first time and I must say that even at old age and with the knowledge of earlier experiences, it doesn't hurt less. Yes, you get over it but first you must allow yourself to be desperate, feel very sad, feel forlorn, can't think that live goes on without him. It is like a purification of your soul. If you can talk with your friends about it, all the better. Suffering without support is much harder.

Bleed · 41-45, F

This is the 3rd for me. After the 1st I stayed single for 2 years. When I met the father of my kids I knew I didn’t love him as much. I thought that was a good thing because he’d never be able to hurt me like that. He was an alcoholic and when we split I lost everything including my home. It took me a while to get back on my feet but I did it. I was happy on my own. Then I met Cam. He was suppose to be just a one anight stand but we fell so hard and fast for each other. I really thought we’d grow old together. Not only have I lost him, I’ve lost my best friend and the future I’d planned but I’ve also lost all my independence. I don’t want to be alone. I can’t stand being alone right now.

Rickichickie · 56-60, F

Wish I could give you a hug. I know that this wouldn't change your situation. 😞

Bleed · 41-45, F

Really could do with a hug. I found out Monday by an email that he’s been seeing someone else. It explains everything but I’m so hurt

Rickichickie · 56-60, F

Men! Sheesh! Maybe not all of them are bad but it's not easy to find the pearl amongst the pile of sh...