April 11th 2026

How things have changed but still the same. I'm caught in an infinite loop. I wish I knew how to break the cycle full stop but maybe like I always thought I'm meant to live life this way. How is it that I still can't feel loved even with my own children? It's because I know my self, I'm undeserving. I know my fractured thinking and intrusive thoughts. On the tip of my tongue and sometimes escaping. What does the awareness mean? Is it good or bad, I can't tell anymore. I want to be better.

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HikingMan · 51-55, M

Self-awareness is a first step in a series of steps that can bring you to a place of rebuilding.

Awareness
Acceptance
Accountability

But what you're claiming here to be awareness doesn't sound to me like awareness.
You say you know yourself in one sentence and in the very next you claim that you're Underserving...

Which is obviously untrue in a universal sense.
You are not your past.