I Am Lonely

There's clearly something wrong with me. Everybody keeps leaving me. It's always the same cycle. Meet someone. Have some fun. Then they need help with something. Do everything you can to help, see them through it. Finally it's "Thanks for that, but I think we need some distance now."

Obviously the problem is me.

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Loretta78 · 46-50, F

I am not sure if YOU are the problem because I've made EXACTLY the same experiences.

I tend to believe that nowadays people don't want long-lasting relationships.

I am feeling almost like the boss of loneliness. I don't have ANY, really ANY friends at all. Not on SW and not in real life. Sometimes I don't hear my own voice for weeks.

And although this loneliness is sometimes really hard for me to take I prefer it like this than always and always get cheated by people/"friends" again.

Xuan12 · 31-35, M

@Loretta78: And when you finally do hear your voice again, it seems so strange. I do that too.

Loretta78 · 46-50, F

@Xuan12: Yes, it is. On Friday I went for shopping in supermarket and when the cashier gave me my cash I said "Thank you." And in the same moment I was wondering myself: "Oh! Is it really you who is talking?"
That's a little bit crazy, isn't it? 😅

Xuan12 · 31-35, M

@Loretta78: Sometimes I think the sound of my voice has actually changed from such little use.

Loretta78 · 46-50, F

@Xuan12: Yes. That's what I think sometimes too. It might be possible. 😓

Xuan12 · 31-35, M

@Loretta78: Oh, I don't think you need to worry about it. I'm sure your voice is lovely either way. Personally, I think mine gets better. The relaxed vocal chords seem to, for a time, have greater vocal range. I can sing in ways I couldn't before, at least for a little while.