I Am Lonely
My friends have drifted away from me and I have nobody to talk to. I work nights, I spend time hating my job, my degree and my life. My boyfriend goes to bed early and I sit here all night, wishing I could be at home, in my bed, wishing I could get some sleep. I'm tired, dazed and confused. I spend my life wanting to talk, wanting conversation, support and someone to understand me. I battle my struggles in silence. I miss my old friends, the good old days, the laugh and sadness we've shared. I remember how we grew apart and how much their presence meant to me. I know life changes, I know people come and go, but memories are forever and I'm glad to have them, but at the same time I wish I had someone to replace the emptiness my old friends left in my heart. I loved them with a pure, true love and I still have that love for them, even though we won't ever talk again. I still remember that sweetest giggle in the voice messages and the longest e-mails. It's hard to let go, it's been years, but it's still hard to let go.